Driving

In everybody's life have certain points, by special start-synod, when we can change our life totally and can improve ourself. But these moments are rare and usually are frightful. In these moments everyone of us would like to run away or hide themself under a blanket, just not face the challange. Althought we wanted this opportunities of change, because we want to put our life on the next level. But the process of stepping on another level is always hard.

I have this kind of period in my life theses days, and I can tell you I always meet the hardest challanges and I face the deepest of my fears ever. One of these fears was driving a car alone in a big city. I got my driving licence in  2002 but I drived a car only 1 year in 2008. And that was an autoamitc car, not with shift and klutch. To drive a car was always a too big responsibility. I have to take care lot of things. I did not trust myself earlier, and I always could avoid to drive a car. But this week There was no more excuse. I hade to drive, in Berlin, alone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
In the office Renate said to me: "I am sorry, but tomorrow we have so many patient, that you do not have time to go on your other workplace by bike. (Originally I even do not like ride a bike, but I had to face with this problem too.).-You have to drive there! "
I felt myself like frosen".

But next day, when I say no to the upcomming panic attac, I said to myself: "God will drive right now this car, because I KNOW, I can not!" (Last time, I was driving alone a car, the motor always stalled always, and I had an accident) "God can help me. I accept today everything, what will happen on this way with me: accident, problems, everything. " And after this I sat myself in the car, and I remember only I was watching the way, and I drove like enybody on the street.

Miracles always happen out of the comfort zone. This is 100 % sure I know already.